Michael Jordan said that he missed shooting a game buzzer beater more than 27 times. It's so cruel for me in real life. I had tried very hard and swore to protect these important things around me but I still failed again. I feel very frustrated.  I don't know what I am fighting or seeking for. Just like lost a part of my body.

I'm not a man likes to control or limit others' lives. I just want to take care everything I placed importance on. I have own ideas but I don't want to place it to anybody. I am still trying to balance these. I will be learning and improving continually.